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Sometimes News Year’s don’t look like News Year’s, just I have this impression?
Those last 2 years (2017 to 2018; 2018 to 2019) I had a great time in the New Year celebration, but it doesn’t feel like New Year. I remembered some people that had this talk with me once before and I was like, “Come one, is a universal party, it is impossible don’t feel it”. Well, I’ve tried, but I felt like a normal day. Just in 2019/2020 that I changed. Along a process of spiritual growth and a lot of mental cleansing I finish 2019 tired of spiritual things. It was like I asked for this growth just to walk around the world with my cross and arrive in the same place I was. It was like the Universe was saying: “Ok, I will give what you want, this magical, hard path to show that YOU ARE SPIRIT so you can’t sick for a search for it”. I have learned tonnes of thing about feel better, be better, act better. But I could live without it. (From this point of view in time I don’t want too, but I could…”
So, this year I felt like New Year, and more. I realised that sometimes I feel like New Year can be any day in my year. It is the exact moment that I know with signals or feeling that what I ask are true already. When I become sure of what I asked for is already reality, even when I can’t see when it will happen, I feel it. I wake up think that I must prepare for that thing, that moment.
I am not talking about here the moment I decided change, make it different. When we start a new project or a new trip. I am talking about the feeling brough from a strong intuition. (If you ever feel like some years you didn’t had a proper New Year party, and if you feel in some point of a year that thing was going great and you knew it will get even better. This was your intuition.
We want to have this perfect celebration and restart ever year, but if we don’t feel it, that’s ok. It can change any day. But going back to the idea of this text.
Sometimes Christmas won’t feel like Christmas, Birthday won’t seem like the best day to celebrate you. If you keep practicing mindfulness, meditation, be conscious of your life. In some point you will feel like these celebration moments and it would feel better than you remember to be. Time is relative, it always depends. Not even a clock can maintain in the right counting. We create this measure, but we can’t measure the moments. You can know what time will be, but not when the moment will be. But honestly, don’t take this as more one thing to pay attention. Take as a moment of relief because you must not feel as other think you must feel. You can enjoy the moment with people, but don’t make you feel the way you don’t. Because you can just create resistance and you will start to ask, “Why am I not feeling it?” “Is adulthood this boring?” And some people will try to say that, “Yes, you are feeling it because you are more mature” And I am saying for you “Run Forrest Run”. (Forrest Gump movie). Don’t listen it, you will have a lot of blesses, exciting moments. If you keep going, I can honestly say that it will be most of the moments of your life. Most because you won’t depend on other people or things for it.
Your spiritual growth, path sicking can be done online for you. And people can help with day experience on it, but never as the only truth. Believe that there is no truth, that you will learn most with yourself, (mainly if you find this text). You will find your truth.
Yes I could celebrate this year with my presence and with my feelings, with my soul. In my case, I learn observe myself and the unfold of moments, not in a time order, but as a pile of paper I am taking in my existence. In a point that feel like I am not living the life as the person that lived in 2017, or with 22 years old. It is like I moved to other reality. Not as I matured with time, but as I jumped from reality to reality.
I can tell you. Your parents or grandparents knowledge won’t help you in life, sometimes those knowledges can present themselves as good, but probably as your belief was created by your background, you unconsciously manipulated to seem that it was a truth. But if you keep open to see the reality, you will be surprised.
I hope this helps.